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Hi everyone, or should i say Dear Diary.
Oh well, its the same. I'm back to blogging. I've been running around for interviews this few weeks. It was tiring and torturing. Especially when I choose cabin crew as my dream. Ugh, this never goes well. I didn't get any offer for it. Time to back to the reality then. Maybe work in Singapore? Well, two of my besties are there. I can go there too. These few weeks have been a hectic and rough week. 

Million passed away due to some accident, shocked when the vet called me. 

In case you all don't know, this is Million. Hmp, still very sad about it.

Rough.. Its a rough life. I'm too weak and soft. 

That's all today.

Ciao.

Locking my blog.

Planned to lock my blog, but i decided not to. Today is the fourth day of Chinese New Year. Oh yah, Happy Chinese New Year. Theres happy and sad.. Blagh, i don't know what to write here. Waiting for breakfast. Will be going to my brother's gf house later.. Till here. Ciao.

Back from MIA

2nd week of holiday.
How do i feel? BE.OH.ARE.YEE.DEHH.
Last few weeks was like a hell week for me.
Depressed until crying every night.
Why? Because of assignment and exam.
As i said, degree is like hell. DON'T EVER COME.
I FEEL like SUICIDING myself.
RAGH.
So many things happened. Even friendships too.
Duh. what to say. This is life. This life is not beautiful.
KEEP REMINDING MYSELF! --> STOP LIVING IN YOUR OWN DREAM! WAKE UP TO THE REALITY!

Its 2 weeks to Christmas.
Mom had command me an important mission. Desserrrrrts.
Yesh. I'm in charge for the desserts at the Christmas partay.
Moohahaha. One more good news.
I'm going to TOKYO next year. TOKYO DESU!!
Thanks to Auntie Ling Mom gonna take me to TOKYO DISNEY!!!! MOOHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAA.

Till here.
The End.

In the blog mood.

Was suddenly in the mood to blog. Good things and bad things do happen. Was very happy because last night i finally speak out our problem. Just a small matter that i realized long time ago but he still didn't notice it. Congrats to me that i finally say it out. We solved it. =D Good mood. Super good mood.

But then, today we very stress during meeting. Seriously, my mind is spinning and my head is awfully pain. Sigh. Couldn't smile at all. Whole brain is like assignment assignment assignment. T^T Thankfully, outing with Waimun and Michelle after class. I am super stress and relieved after outing with them. Super miss them. Hahahahaa. I am still so hyper. nyahahahahahaaaaaa. 

Till here. Ciao.

is you. your own.

apparently, no one can help you when you are in the moody and stressing time. Yes. NO ONE. seriously, i am in this situation now. from the day my degree start. this stone kept in my heart and it is getting bigger bigger and heavier. well, when you said that you are stress, most of the people will say :" good luck, gambateh, or i know you can cope with it, ect..." but what i really want is to cry out loud. a simple hug will do too. but i never get it.

i've been so moody for weeks. i can't even do a thing to not to be moody. HOW TO LET IT OUT????!!!!!!! just kill me please. i really feel to giving up. but what should i do after i give up? some how i couldn't find any of my dreams any more. i have no target. i gave up my air hostess dream since i receive so many negative comments. sigh. what is life?? eat sleep work eat sleep work? i don't know.

what i really need now is a shoulder to cry on.

stressing at the top!

One word. STRESSS. While other people are enjoy their life to the maximum of the maximum. I am stressing here to the maximum of the maximum. Presentation presentation and presentation. Research research research. Could this ever stop for a minute? I wished it could stop for my whole life. But what to do, I am not the GOD. I can just stand up and move on! The is what life really are, rather than outing and laughing everyday without any worries. One way that i can throw out all the stressing feeling is through here. Leave my blog if you don't want to see me complaining. =S

So much things to do. I'm super sleepy. Yesterday went to Lam Wah Ee because something happened. Came back home at 2a.m. and do my assignment until 3a.m. =.= And now I am still stuck with this assignment. Presentation tomorrow. God bless me. Ciao.

Post before doing my assignments.

Loads of assignments are waiting me. 2 presentation needs to be present on next week. DOOMED. Degree life is not fun. *missing diploma's life* Now my room is a mess and it ain't cheering me up. Loads of boxes needs to be unpack yet I'm lazy to do it. Not going back to hometown this week. Wish this life could stop now. One thing is i really hope that i can slim down in 3 months time.

Gonna watch smurf with Michelle this Friday. Yay! Super missing her and Waimun! Missing the gossip. BUt i think now we don't have any similar topics already. Sigh. Another thing to be sad. What a "joyful" life i have. I just want back the time we spent together. Seriously! T.T Why........... So many things need to be done. Really tired. Everyday woke up with problems in my head. PLUS! I DIDN'T GET MY MQA CERT STILL!!!! I hope i will get it soon, if not... T.T I will take the exams again. I DON'T WANT!!!!!!

Till here. Ciao.

Its a boring life. Sucks.

Demotivated. Moody. Speechless. These are my moods now. Don't feel like talking at all. Can't really laugh out. I smile fakely, and unwantedly. -.- Don't know why i have this kind of mood. I just hope these mood would just fly away tomorrow. I hate it so much. It makes me think of my life is useless. Sigh. Presentations keep coming and knock my door. I don't have any mood to do the research thingy at all. Felt so sorry to my group members. T.T I wish holidays were longer and i have a time stopper machine. But it was only just a dream.

Had night mares for don't know how many nights already. When I'm feeling moody, I always want to pick a fight with my boyfriend. =.= Pity him. I'm sorry. I'm just don't know what way i can let this go. Nothing will cheers me up. Not even chocolates or ice-cream. Maybe i'm just stressed out with all the things coming and coming. I had no one to share with? I lost a lot of things recently. I don't know how to express it out. I hope this is just my imagination.

PLUS!

One of my best sister is leaving to Singapore. T.T I will miss you! Hornestly, going to college without you is so demotivating. This is the first time i felt wanted to cry. T.T

Thats all. Ciao.

A new beginning.

Well well well, had started my degree life. Such an awful life. Timetables and classes are different from diploma. Almost every class is 3hours. The worst case is class is until 6.30pm every Tuesday and Thursday. Nightmare comes again. WTH. Ugh, so different. I want back my diploma life. T.T Diploma is such a heaven. Rolls back my memory. So fun everyday.

Currently is very interested in most of the DIY thingys. Getting a headache while choosing what to buy. -.- Like Waimun said, Hope I can have a workshop. Mee toooo!!!!! Is like so fun having ur own DIY thing selling to people~ Nothing much to say today. I'm sorry to my blog. LOL Having class at 2pm later. Such a weird time, looooooong hours class again. Hope that I will survive~ Ciao.

Lastly:

Laziness kills my blog.

I'm sorry. I'm just not in the mood for blog + lazy.

Will try to get my mood back.

Something really brought my mood down.

Till here.

Sneakpeak for Mickey's Photoshoot. XD